Fatigue & A Little On Company Trip 2007

Feel so tired right now… Lack of sleep is stealing my consciousness, not to mention memory *groan*… As I’ve mentioned before, I even procrastinate my one and only shower time in a day… As such, I subsequently procrastinate my sleeping time as well (read: great elements of procrastination at work here)… @.@ Will need time to overturn these bad habits (no thanks to procrastination!)… *yawn* Maybe I’ll keep track of my progress here, perhaps that’ll discipline me (bye bye to procrastination!)… Anyway, if anyone guessed it, I haven’t taken my shower yet… *blekkk*

*shower*

Went for yoga class a while ago actually, which might have attributed even more to the existing fatigueness. Injured my right inner thigh slightly too, ouch… Hope it’s temporary. Well, my right inner thigh didn’t feel quite right already after Tuesday’s CFA class, probably due to bad sitting posture. It was still hurting a wee bit yesterday, but the little tinge of pain was not there anymore the whole day today. And so, I forgot all about it and stretched it as much as I could during yoga… *sigh*

On a side note, coming Saturday will see me and my colleagues heading to the forests of Jerangkang, Pahang, for our company trip this year. We will be doing jungle activities and camping for our company trip when some lucky people get to tour Bali for their company trip. *sob* But, don’t underestimate the monetary value of this company trip. It costs a freaking RM500 per person! To think that we are going to torture ourselves, camp and spend one and a half day there only… -_-”’

Anyhow, I’m looking forward to enjoy myself and I hope it will be a memorable trip, albeit a short one, for me and my colleagues. It is something out of the ordinary, although I silently hope that our company trips could be more relaxing (hey, it is weekend…) (…it was a motivation camp at Bukit Tinggi last year… -_-”’), I believe I will be able to learn and grow more from activities like these. :)

Shouldn’t be too tired gua after coming back from the trip? Haven’t really recuperate, sleep wise, from the Gunung Irau and Gunung Brinchang hiking trip… *groan* Okay, time to doze off…

*sekejap*

P/S: My blog entry on the Gunung Irau and Gunung Brinchang hiking trip is still being drafted as of now, be prepared for a long post… *wicked grin* The entry’s date will be earlier than this entry’s though as I started on the former first.

*snore*

An Unexpected Feedback

Often when I’m hit by a wave of mild depression, I’d confide my weaknesses and problems to anyone who I deem is willing to listen to my…uh, lamentations. Few weeks ago, when I was once again not thinking straight, one of the lucky persons was Susan, my previous manager at my current company. I’m quite grateful to her for having listened to me and for sharing with me her own similar experiences. She’s one of the few people whose words had managed to sink into my stubborn head…or perhaps it’s just a question of timing. :P

Anyway, few days ago, she left a message for me on YM, asking me to YM her when I was free because she had something to feedback to me. My mind immediately wandered back to our last Saturday’s Cameron Highland’s Gunung Irau and Gunung Brinchang hiking trip, of which I will blog about later. I began to think about what I did wrong, or even right, during the whole Cameron trip, especially the hike.

Coincidentally, I was busy with meetings and discussions for the most part of the day, so you can just imagine how the curiosity was really suffocating me…okay, I was exaggerating. But I did kept wondering on and off about what the feedback was all about.

The time finally came. Well, it was something totally unexpected…it was about my body odour, or body scent, as she called it. *paiseh*

Well, I personally do not think much of the problem, although I did try, at several points of my life, to google it up on the net when I was curious about the cure for the problem. It has long since escaped my mind until Susan brought it up that day, mainly because I was simply too lazy to take care of the problem (the suggested solutions must have been too troublesome to follow…). *sheepish grin*

My earliest memory of having the problem was during my secondary school years. Or was it as early as primary school? Anyway, my mom sort of mentioned to me about it and later bought me a deodorant to overcome the problem. Being the naive me, I just followed instructions and that was it. I really didn’t thought much about it. And I practically stuck to deodorants only. It was either deodorants…or none at all (my poor friends…). *paiseh*

As counter-measures, Susan suggested a shower every morning before heading out or…use deodorants.

… … …

You know your deodorant is terribly ineffective when people is suggesting that you use deodorants when in fact you have been using deodorants. *sob*

It’s impossible for me to take a shower every morning before heading out. I’m way too lazy for that, heck, I even procrastinate my one and only shower time in a day… *paiseh* And so, I emphasized to Susan that it’s just not a priority of mine to overcome it at the moment because in my mind, I had other things to pay attention to. But she stressed that it should be a priority of mine. I can understand her point of view. It is very important for self-image and is a form of self-awareness as well as self-hygiene, but I’m simply not up to it right now, especially if you want me to shower every morning. *faint*

So I think I’ll compromise a little. Actually, a while back one of my sisters found this deodorant by Total Image at Watson’s which she said is quite effective in ridding body odour. Another sister tried it and testified to its effectiveness as well, compared to commercial deodorants. I myself had yet to try it because I had just bought another Enchanteur Romantic Roll-On Deodorant 50ml then, in addition to an existing new one (kiasu, wan to buy cheap cheap, scare the price naik…). Yeah, I’ve been a loyal consumer of this deodorant for quite some time now, with deliberate ignorance of its ineffectiveness. *paiseh* Another reason would be the obvious price difference, i.e. RM6.80 for 50ml versus RM14.90 for 60g, but then, if it’s really that effective…

I’ve decided to get the Total Image deodorant and use it in alternate with the Enchanteur deodorant until I finish off both of the Enchanteur deodorants. *beam*

For the sake of those who have the same problem as I do and with the level of laziness that matches mine, here’s more about the Total Image deodorant:

Smelly No More
Natural Crystal Roll On Deodorant Stick

A 24 hour anti bacteria deodorant formulated from natural mineral crystal salt that fights body odour.

Trusted for centuries by the people in the Far East & Asia, pure and natural crystal stone is one of the most effective remedies to rid strong body odour (but I’ve never heard of it until now…).

300% more effective than commercial deodorant.
Hypo-allergenic
Alcohol free
Non sticky

P/S: I don’t go for anti-perspirant deodorants because of a forwarded email I received quite some time ago about anti-perspirant deodorants causing breast cancers. Since I don’t care much about my body scent, it isn’t something that I’d risk my life for.

Starting Afresh

I have been a sporadic blogger over at Blogger’s for the past few years. I blogged for attention (…although I had remained anonymous all the way, save for the revelation of my own full name), and I blogged to rant. And of late, my blog posts have been rather emotional and full of excess baggage as I was coping with a mild depression.

Well, I am still coping with some depression, more or less. However, after stumbling upon WordPress.com again whilst looking out for user interface samples for my work lately and trying out the user name autumnmusic on it successfully, a eureeka! sounded in my head (…well, sort of). I felt a strong urge to start anew with a new blog where I will blog and share bits and pieces of my life experiences on a less personal level than before. It was time for me to, say, grow up…in a way. I’m not sure what way…yet.

I hope this blog will help me build up and affirm my true characteristics. To help me confidently become, accept and improve myself as time goes by.

come and have a cup of tea with me… will be my starting theme. I hope my readers will accompany me on this journey of self-discovery as I tell my story entry by entry. Constructive feedbacks are most welcomed, even a casual non-threatening comment will bring me joy. Harsh, insensitive and degrading comments will be totally rejected based solely on my own judgement.

As for the name of the blog… I love autumn and I love music. As simple as that.