Faith Of The Heart

I’ve just realized of late that I’m actually quite into movie and drama soundtracks. They remind me of some scenes from the movies and dramas that striked out to me, regardless of the language. One particular Hindi movie, Kal Ho Naa Ho, stands out quite firmly in my list of all-time favourites. The soundtracks are awesome, although I have no idea what they’re singing about. I’m more of a melody person, I guess, I usually don’t bother to listen to lyrics.

Anyway, Faith Of The Heart by Rod Stewart is a soundtrack from an American movie, Patch Adams. Simply said, it’s based on a true story about a very clever man who truly believes that laughter is the best medicine, and his journey of making his dream of building a hospital full of laughter come true. Everyone thought he was crazy. But that was before he was admitted to a mental hospital, for reasons I can’t quite remember. Maybe that’s why everyone thought he was crazy… He gave up on his dream when the woman he truly loved was killed by a burglar, but later picked himself up and started all over again. Somehow, I couldn’t forget the part where he gave up on his dream…

Well, that’s how I remembered the movie. It stars Robin Williams, one of my favourite actors because he always looks so contented and never fails to make people laugh. :)

The song caught my attention lately when I did pay attention to its lyrics. But what it sings of is only a bare reflection of my own life, I feel. Because I haven’t really been through much…

And I still don’t have any goals in sight…yet.

But I strongly feel the winds of change in my life, their ever presence. Praise the Lord, their magnitudes are quite bearable so far. Or maybe I’m just too blur to realize the real impact… Nevertheless, no matter what happens, life still goes on. After all, things do happen for one reason or another. When the going gets tough, faith is very much needed in order to believe that better things are in store in the future.

It’s been a long road
Gettin’ from there to here
It’s been a long time
But my time is finally near

And I can feel the change in the wind right now
Nothing’s in my way
And they’re not gonna hold me down no more
No they’re not gonna hold me down

Chorus
‘Cause I’ve got faith of the heart
I’m goin’ where my heart will take me
I’ve got faith to believe
I can do anything
I’ve got strength of the soul
No one’s gonna bend nor break me
I can reach any star
I’ve got faith
Faith of the heart

It’s been a long night
Tryin’ to find my way
Been through the darkness
Now I finally have my day

And I will see my dream come alive at last
I will touch the sky
And they’re not gonna hold me down no more
No they’re not gonna change my mind

Chorus

I know the wind’s so cold
I’ve seen the darkest days
But now the winds I feel
Are only winds of change

I’ve been through the fire
And I’ve been through the rain
But I’ll be fine

Chorus

It’s been a long road

Yeah, it’s been a long road all right. And it doesn’t stop here.

A Thoughtful Gift…And Note

A thoughtful gift made my day during my company’s Christmas gift exchange this year. It wasn’t what I wrote in our Christmas wishlist, a wishlist that was hopelessly disfigured by some people, albeit quite creatively though. I asked for rechargeable AAA batteries for my MP3 player actually, as I thought I’d lost my only remaining not-likely-to-survive-long AAA battery (found it again the other day…). The other one began to show signs of aging few months ago (despite being used for one and a half year only…) and had since been disposed of for fear of explosion.

Back to the gift, it was a crystal bangle with purple crystals supposedly for good fortune in career. Santa even wrote a little note to express apology for not giving me what I wished for as Santa had bought the gift before I wrote what I wrote in the wishlist, haha…which I think was really sweet. In fact, the little note itself put more value and meaning to the gift, which was also a pleasant surprise itself. Well, I might not be wearing it often as things tend to deteriorate at a much faster rate in my hands, but it will be one of the little treasures that I cherish and keep for a long time. Thank you, Santa, true from my heart. ^.^

Actually, I have quite a good guess of who Santa might be, of course, due to the handwriting on the note. I wasn’t the one who recognised the handwriting though (didn’t cross my mind to take note of things like these, hehe…), some of the colleagues did. The guess was further confirmed when the suspected Santa didn’t bother to ask about my gift when I asked about Santa’s, hehe… Well, I didn’t probe further, thought that will spoil all the fun. After all, it’s the spirit of giving that counts…even though it might get a wee bit off the path sometimes… (…animal jokes CDs, for example… -_-”’)

The Magic Of Old MP3s

Wow…it’s December already. Exactly two months from now, I’ll be celebrating my 27th birthday. Sigh…I don’t feel like growing up. Well, it should be growing old actually, but in my honest opinion, experience wise, it really does not apply to someone as blur and naive as me (or am I really that blur and naive, hmmm…).

Why doesn’t time stop once in a while? It would be so nice… Or perhaps it did, just that none of us realized that it did…

Am getting more and more forgetful. Sometimes I feel as if I’m losing myself every now and then. I don’t remember what I’ve said, what’s more to say of what people has told me. Sigh…physically, I am growing old. But I think it’s largely due to lack of sleep. I have this bad habit of refusing to turn in even though it’s obviously time for me to sleep, be it due to tiredness or sleepiness. Usually I won’t go to sleep until I can’t stand it anymore. Yes, it’s crazy and stupid. Hope this won’t cause me dementia. *cross fingers*

Anyway, been copying some old MP3s to my office computer and listening to them at work for the past two weeks. The feeling is just so…refreshingly nostalgic. I felt as if I’ve found a lost part of me… *chuckles* And I’ve been singing out loud (quite loud actually sometimes, ahem…) while listening to the old songs via my earphones, much to the amusement (might as well add aggravation here, hehe…) of my colleagues, haha (bat hou yi si, sumimasen, hehe…).

Some of the songs are amazingly soothing…the romantic soundtracks of Para Para Sakura, for example. I’ve got two in my collection that simply…fly me away with every note everytime I listen to them…beautiful, just so beautiful. Listening to them had me thinking of some scenes from the movie itself, which was actually quite a sweet one for me. Somehow reminded me a little of me and Pig Head as well. :) On the other hand, it’s another thing all together if a quarrel manages to erupt…thankfully, that’s only once in a long while, hehe.

Listening to the fast tracks, on the other hand, tempts me to take up some modern dance classes. Or just simply re-visit the few pop dances that I used to learn (…through MVs and downloaded shows…) and dance on my own. Mostly Jolin’s though, the old ones. My favourite one would be Shinhwa’s Hero. ^.^ But it’s been a while since I danced to those tunes, sigh, not sure whether can still recall the steps… Or perhaps, my body would the one that would not respond well due to aging, sighhhhh… (but got yoga still boleh tahan gua…)

I need to recharge myself with some old stuff once in a while, I guess. To find back the part of me that I’d lost but should’ve retained as time mercilessly flies away without waiting for anything, carrying one reluctant and confused me on its wings… My hopes, my dreams… Even though it’s too late for certain things to be done and realized now, not all are lost. It’s still not too late.